Brave people are considered risk-takers and I am a risk-taker. Don’t get me wrong, I am not the type of risk-taker that most people would view the word.
First, I do not go for adventure sports. Oh, how I wish I am the type. I love to go to places, but not really those that would put me in danger zones. Perhaps, the last thing I did was crossing (hanged in cable wires) from one mountain to the other. It did happen in 2007. The experience was exhilarating, but I think that was it.
Second, when I am faced with a great force—I really do not confront. I confront when I am really pushed to the wall, but as long as I still have space to move backwards and can look at the situation from afar, and then I get to retreat.
So what’s my point? Actually, I have two points.
In writing, I have realized that there are far better writers than me, far excellent than me. I do not want to compete. I feel getting into any competition now and gunning to win, the chances are really slim for me. What I did, I identified a particular genre, which I can focused on and excel at the same time. I am happy where I am right now—writing PRs and doing copywriting as well. I am not saying that there are no challenges, but I can daresay it is something I am confident in doing. I just wanted to be sure that I am able to deliver.
In relationships, I know when to fight for the love of my life, but I also know when to raise my arms up and say, “Enough, I give up.” Giving up doesn’t necessarily mean that I lost the love, the feeling I have toward the object of my affection, but I choose to retreat because I believe each one of us need some space to recuperate strength. I dare not precede anything if I would just end up or both of us end up hurting each other. Being brave for me is not the absence of fear—but rather putting things in order before I make the required action.
Yes, the moment I am in right now is something that where the brave dare not go. Some would see it a pathetic lair—a loser’s path. I would put it as a humbling, pruning phase for me. The driven people, the achievers would not even want to miss a second in letting opportunities slip away. They would prefer taking all the credits. But I am not. I see everything as opportunities, but maybe I am not just cutout to be like them.
I see beyond anything. Winning is not actually the biggest thing for me, but it is the journey, the things that I will be learning in the process is the one I am giving premium to.